I'm a chaotic mess.
I feel like tearing my hair off, until my scalp bleed. I feel like scratching my skin, till there's nothing left of me. I feel like grasping my own neck, squeezing, draining out every drop of my energy, and then rip my vocal cord out of me.
I've been wearing the same mask everday, it has become my norm. But why does it seem to be harder lately?
Every time I let my breath out, I feel like a part of my soul has gone. How long will it be, before everything is gone, and I turn into a ghoul? How long will it be, before someone realizes the soulless eyes, staring blankly in front of her, silently screaming for an escape? Or should I just hold my breath, till I use up all the oxygen, and slowly die?
Whatever it is, death is haunting me.
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Hey, I am from the USA, born and raised, but I'm Egyptian. Do you recommend studying medicine abroad at your university?? Thanks.
ReplyDeleteHi Salma. Although I don't know if you will get this reply.
ReplyDeleteI assume you were talking about alexandria university, egypt. I'm not sure if the university is recognized by USA. So you gotta check that first. Or whether you need to take extra exam before you could practise in USA.
But if you were talking about the facility and all that, I think it would be better if you study in US. Well, I dont really know how things are in US so I cant really say.
I'm sorry if I'm not much of a help. But you could try asking around or do some googling. If you want to talk to me, you could email me at han.neesa@gmail.com