Hello, I am back again writing this while walking on my treadmill. Oh have I mentioned that I bought new shoes just so I can run? Because I have gained weight (yeap, have not lose my pregnancy weight) and my stamina is really down low (not that it was high to begin with).
So today I will be writing about my birthing experience. Baby H will be 2 months soon and believe it or not, I am starting to forget how painful the contraction pain is - not really but I survived. Lol.
Since I have GDM on meds, I have to be induced to prevent further complication. So I roughly know when I was supposed to deliver. Or else, I would have to wait for the signs and symptoms of labour - and honestly, I just couldn’t because I really really need to take a break from work.
Anyways. I was supposed to be admitted on the 23rd of December and induced on the 24th. If everything went well, I would be expecting Christmas baby lol. But also lowkey was hoping I deliver on 24th, so her birthday will be the same as our anniversary date. Also hoping that bae would accompany me to the hospital when I was admitted. But nope and nope. Of course nothing went as what I hoped.
Bae was oncall at the time I was admitted. And worse is that he had to do EOD call. So I was hoping for the next best thing, mom to accompany me. But nope, she went to Indonesia - I think- and her flight home was on 24th, if I remember correctly. Joked around and said probably by the time her flight landed in KK, I already sent her the picture of her granddaughter lol. Luckily big bro was around - and he decided to take the day off since Sabah declared Christmas eve as public holiday.
Oh I decided to deliver at HWKKS because I am more confident in government hospital lol. Also because I know most of the staff there. So yeah.
I arrived almost noon. Registered and everything. Assessed by the MO and apparently I was already 3 cm dilated and my cervix was favourable so I just need to be sent to the labour room for ARM (artificial rupture of membrane) and augmentation. Nope, I don’t have any contraction - or even tightening - at that time. But having my os assessed - and I think they even did S&S (where they help to stretch your os even more) on me lol - lowkey hurt. I think I almost cried the first time I was assessed. Then the HO attempted to insert branula on me (twice!) and failed so my Anaes MO friend who was visiting me helped them lol because damn painful weh I couldn’t stand it already. Honestly I don’t know why they couldn’t get the line since my vein is damn prominent.
Slept peacefully on the 23rd. Nothing much changes on the 24th. Couldn’t be induced since my cervix is favourable. Couldn’t go to the labour room since it is forever busy. I still haven’t had any contraction. Or even tightening. So I spent the time walking around, watching this stupidly funny Thai drama, sleeping, and Instagramming lol. Brought a novel with me too but too lazy to read. Mom and bae came and visit me. And also couple of friends who are working in the hospital.
Early morning of the 25th, I think I had contraction pain. Told the nurse - actually sister - who took my vitals, then she timed my contraction, and apparently my contraction was 2 in 10 minutes. I think that was the only time I had contraction lol since after that I was pain free. But at least my os was progressing from 3cm to 4cm so I was in active phase of labour. Which means I will be assessed every 4 hourly instead of 6 hourly. And they should send me to labour room anytime soon.
Around afternoon, I woke up from my nap and I was shivering. Barely could move. Was so cold and shivered so hard that I think I cried a bit lol. Patient next to me was like, but it’s not cold, and called the nurse. Checked my temperature, and I had low grade fever. Given paracetamol and finally I was back to my normal self. And I was like oh wow OK now I know how chills and rigor feels like lol all this while I only write it in case notes. And also they did the whole septic workup on me - which turned out to be negative thank God cuz I lowkey scared I have all the ESBL, MRO, CRE organisms on me haha - despite me thinking I was feverish because of thrombophlebitis. But I was there as a patient, not as a doctor so yeah totally up to them what they wanna do.
Around evening, they did CTG on me, and it turned out to be fetal tachycardia. Could be because of the fever - but since my fever already resolved, I think it was unlikely. Anyway I was afraid that it would become fetal distress and I had to be pushed for C-sec but luckily the tachycardia resolved after 2 or 3 pints of hydration. After discussing with the specialist oncall, the MO oncall then proceeded to ARM me (I was 5 cm by this time) - clear liquor, thank God. I think minutes after the ARM then the contraction pain finally came.
Oh God. Imagine your period pain, but multiply it thousands time. (Also I was like oh so *this* is what contraction feels like lol). I don’t think my period pain is that painful - I know there are others who suffered even worse period pain - but even then I occasionally imagine ripping my uterus out so that the pain will stop lol. So imagine how bad I want to rip my uterus out during my contraction lol. Also since my membrane was ruptured, my liquor kept leaking everytime the contraction came - which is about 4 contractions in 10 minutes. And since I was already 5cm and it was so painful for me I couldn’t walk, I couldn’t even go to the toilet to pee lol and I was like eff it I’m gonna pee right here right now and so I didn’t know if the fluid that came out of me was purely liquor or if I indeed peed as well haha. Disclaimer: you can call the nurse so they could help you to go to the toilet or give you that potty thingy, but I didn’t even care because contraction pain lol also because scared somehow I would progress to os fully and ended up deliver in the toilet haha.
I was still in the ward at this time. Yes, imagine I haven’t been pushed to the labour room yet despite having my membrane ruptured and having regular contraction. I was hoping that I would get epidural but nope. Of course nothing happened as I hoped. Instead, they gave me the only painkiller I could get in the ward, which is IM Nubain. And oh boy, even the injection was painful. Worse is that I don’t think the drug is that helpful anyway???? The contraction is still painful?!?!? And only afterwards I understand what my patients went through during my O&G posting 😅 I wonder how about those who only took Entonox.
Managed to told mom and bae I would most likely be called to the labour room soon (haha what a joke) and still manage to call and text bae but then I gave in to the pain and told bae I couldn’t talk anymore and tried to sleep (but nope I don’t think I managed to sleep). Luckily bae - who was oncall at that time - managed to accompany me around midnight up until I delivered. Thank God his ward got housemen at tha time and no active issues. And also I think because he’s a staff so the ward staff gave a bit of leeway and let him be at my side.
Anyways. I was groaning (lowkey almost shouted lol) in pain - and I was quite noisy lol because I heard the staff were asking who is that and another answered it was me lol - and kept on asking to be assessed because I felt like I was bearing down, and bae almost assessed me lol and I was like no, I want other person to assess me so the nurse assessed me but nope it was still 5 cm and I was like can I please get another jab of Nubain and the nurse was like sorry but it was only 3 hours from the last jab so cannot and oh my god it hurts so much when will I be called to the labour room (by this time I probably had cursed the MO oncall of labour room many times lol). In the end the MO came and assessed me and thank God I was already 7 cm and since I was also bearing down they decided to push me anyway to the labour room - God knows when will I go to the labour room if we waited to be called instead.
So changed bed - I could barely moved lol. Pushed to the labour room - and I groaned in pain throughout. Assessed in labour room again and guess what, I was already 9 cm. i remembered looking at bae and was like oh no won’t be able to ask for epidural now sobs. Then os fully and after 20 minutes of pushing, I finally delivered my beautiful baby H at 1.41 am on 26th of December 2019, with birth weight of 3.31 kg (her estimated weight during scan was 2.9kg lol). Of course, I had episiotomy - it really wasn’t that painful since the contraction was much worse - but then the moment baby H went through me, I felt this particular pain - which turned out to be labial tear. So, so painful. Like, very painful.
And oh, have you ever heard one says you won’t feel anything once the baby is out and all you could focus on is your beautiful baby? Nope. Bullshit. Delivering your placenta is OK. But having whatever tear you have down there repaired? That is another kind of pain. I legit screamed during the first stitch, and I was shaking while holding on to bae’s hand trying to bear the pain. Also luckily I didn’t crush while holding baby H - who was lying on my chest for skin to skin during that time.
Is anyone still reading this? Lol been sometime since the last time I posted quite a lengthy post. I think I’mma end it here and continue on next post - the different kinds of pain you will feel post delivery. Lol.
Till next time. Ciao.
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